Sometimes it feels like doing everything that needs to be done in order to be the person I want to be would take too much effort. Then I wonder why I'm not willing to put forth the effort it would take to be truly happy with myself. It just doesn't make any sense.
For being so evolved as a species, how is it possible that we've lost our basic instincts? I understand why people would choose to ignore their gut instincts-- they can reason and justify themselves out of most fear and apprehensions. What I can't figure out is what's happened to the survival instinct. How is it that so many choose to harm themselves? Drugs, alcohol, self-mutilation, suicide... shouldn't a person's instincts kick in at some point in order to survive? The saddest part is that so many of these harmful habits make the person "feel alive" while doing the exact opposite to their bodies.
Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, and Michael Jackson all in one week. Damn.
I am now more motivated than ever to work out on a stationary bike. Now I close my eyes and imagine myself winding down cute little streets with cute little old houses with the cobblestones churning beneath my tires. There's a cool breeze and my hair is flying and my scarf is whipping about behind me as I ring my little bell to warn pedestrians that I'm coming up behind them. The sun is shining and the flowers are blooming and people are speaking in their cute little dutch accents and sitting about in little coffee shops watching me as I go by.
I just cleaned out my fb account. My preferences are now set to block updates from all friends that are engaged, married, and/or have children. Hopefully this will help me stop comparing my life-milestone timeline to everyone else's... and maybe I'll stop feeling like I'm losing at life.
Congratulations, graduates! You hold in your hands the most expensive piece of paper you will ever own. You're sleep-deprived, in debt, hung over, 20 lbs. heavier, and you probably have no idea what to do next or how to get a job in the current economy.

Aww, Pink. That's so sad that it actually is from you "time period". What are they listening to these days?... read more
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